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How I Got Saved – The Human View

In yesterday’s post, I emphasized the divine perspective of my salvation, i.e. that I am a child of God by His sovereign choice in Christ. It was His plan, His initiative, long before my will ever got involved. Today, I explain the instrumentation God employed in early 1984 to free me from the spiritual darkness of works-based religion, and bondage to sin, in order to bring me to Himself in such a way that I was clearly conscious of turning from sin to Christ. Consider it the human view of my salvation.

The Scriptures are clear in their presentation of the instruments God ordained as necessary for the spread of the gospel and the reconciliation of sinners to Himself, a messenger (witness) of the Word (the gospel), empowered by the Holy Spirit who is responsible to convict and regenerate the sinner (Rom 10:8-14; John 16:8). “So faith comes from hearing, and hearing by the Word of Christ” (Rom 10:17), and all who are born again are so “not by the will of man, but of God,” being “born of the Spirit” (John 1:13; 3:5). How is it that I heard the truth of the gospel at the age of 19 and consciously believed in Jesus, thus receiving the forgiveness of sins?

Since I was born and raised in an attentive Roman Catholic home I have no memory of ever missing Sunday morning Mass while growing up. My parents had me baptized into the church as an infant and religiously brought me to catechism class throughout my elementary years and, though I forget the service itself, I remember the new clothes they bought me for First Communion. As a sophomore in high school, I completed Confirmation class and successfully passed my personal interview with a church official. He asked why I wanted to officially be accepted into the Roman Catholic Church and I gave the answer my friends and I had rehearsed, which I fail to remember to this day, but was what we knew he expected to hear. I participated in a special service, kissed the cardinal’s ring, and was set to go. I had done my duty.

While growing up in that clean, religious environment, I did my best to outwardly obey the rules that were taught me at home and church, but inwardly, and privately, I was someone else. I went to Penance twice-a-year and confessed the same sins to the priest each time, choosing to mention only a few of the dozens I could have named. During high school I would sometimes forget to abstain from eating meat on Fridays during Lent. Guilt would nag me until I confessed to my parents that I had forgotten. Had anyone ever asked me if I thought I’d go to heaven when I died I would have replied “I hope so.” The reality was I did not think of heaven and hell at all. As a pretty good Catholic boy I felt safe as long as I was doing the bare minimum.

After graduation from high school, I moved away from home to attend a Roman Catholic college. While there, I was nominal in my religion, rarely attending Mass on Sunday and instead catching a weekday service at the college chapel whenever I felt like it, which was not very often. I no longer felt an obligation to attend Mass and since it did not seem to make any difference in my life it seemed natural to be absent. I was the typical undeclared major in college, lacking purpose and direction, attending weekend retreats with priests and nuns in an attempt to “find myself,” but never did. I even went so far as to try self-hypnosis to fill the inner void that was becoming increasingly obvious. I had finally come to the point of realizing my need would never be met by religiosity or my life of sin. God’s convicting work had begun.

The process of conviction began sometime near the beginning of 1984. One Sunday morning I decided to visit a Bible-believing church my sister had described as “very friendly.” I don’t remember what the sermon was about, but the pastor actually preached from the Bible while the people followed along and, strangest of all, the congregation actually enjoyed being there. To them, this was no mere religious duty, but a true joy. And they stayed around to visit with one another after the service! I had no idea what these people had—what made them different—but I knew I didn’t have it. The following week I received a visitor letter in the mail asking if I might be interested in being part of a home Bible study. I filled the form out positively and mailed it back.

Once-a-week I walked about a mile to a young couple’s apartment where we met with two other couples to read and discuss the Gospel of John, verse-by-verse. After a couple months we progressed as far as chapter three and my eyes and heart were opened (like Lydia in Acts 16:14). There, in John 3, I was introduced to a religious man named Nicodemus who visited Jesus at night to inquire of Him and His teaching. In response to his visit, Jesus said, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God” (John 3:3). It was as if a light bulb went on inside my mind. “I am that man. I am religious (at least somewhat), but have no real spiritual life.”

Sometime within the weeks that followed I felt such overwhelming guilt over my sinful life. All I remember now is crying out to God in the privacy of my bedroom. It was a desperate plea for mercy coupled with the determination to turn away from my sin. I now know more happened at that moment than I ever realized at the time. All I knew then is that I had begun a new life with God. I had exchanged my religion of self-effort and external duty for the Lord Jesus who had bought me with His blood (1 Cor 6:20).

As I reflect back on my spiritual understanding prior to being exposed to the Gospel of John, I would have to say the turning point came when it became clear Jesus had not simply died for the sins of the world, but He died for my sins in order to be my Sin-bearer in order to bring me to God (1 Pet 3:18). Prior to that moment I had been taught that Jesus’s death and resurrection had made me “savable,” but my obedience to the laws and sacraments of the Roman Catholic Church determined whether or not I would truly be saved. Even if I was able to be fairly obedient to the church’s demands its teaching virtually guaranteed I would also have to endure a season in Purgatory after death. What is it that pierced this spiritual darkness? It was these simple biblical truths: all of my sin had already been paid for by Christ on Calvary; heaven was not secured by Jesus plus my baptism and religious works; and when Jesus cried out from the cross “It is finished” (meaning: paid in full) He really meant it. The good news of the gospel transformed me from the inside out. I was born again from above. God had called me and saved me by His initiating grace. Like Paul, the apostle, I had exchanged my self-righteousness for the righteousness of Jesus (Phil 3:9).

The changes the true gospel made in my life were immediate. Total life-transformation had begun. For the first time I actually felt spiritual life within me, had an insatiable hunger for reading the Bible, thirsted for the teaching of truth, longed to be with other believers as often as possible, and experienced deliverance from the binding and blinding power of sin. Within one month I sensed a desire to someday be in vocational ministry, though I had no idea what that looked like. That was almost 28 years ago. When I think of all the Lord has done in my life since then I am in awe of His grace. Not only did He bring me to repentance in order to make me a new creature in Christ (2 Cor 5:17), but He brought a godly, Christian girl into my life within months of my conversion. We married two years later, took a long honeymoon, and packed our bags to head off to Bible college. And the rest is history.

Now, having been in pastoral ministry for almost 20 years, I am more and more amazed that God would choose to pour out His marvelous grace on an undeserving sinner like me. In the words of the apostle, “I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who has strengthened me, because He considered me faithful, putting me into service; even though I was formerly a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent aggressor. And yet I was shown mercy, because I acted ignorantly in unbelief; and the grace of our Lord was more than abundant, with the faith and love which are found in Christ Jesus” (1 Tim 1:12-14).

Anyone who comes to the knowledge of the truth—being rescued out of the spiritual darkness produced by a religious system of works-righteousness—knows it is impossible to ever experience peaceful assurance of being right with God while remaining in that system.  There is always one more good work that could, or should, be done; always one more sin that needs to be offset by another religious rite; or a condemned conscience that needs to be appeased by one more round of the rosary. That’s why the first time I sang Fanny Crosby’s hymn Blessed Assurance it became an instant favorite. To believe you are assured of your salvation is a sin in the Roman Catholic Church. But now I knew the truth. According to the Bible, it is not a sin, but a privilege for those who trust in the perfect sacrifice of Jesus alone—and not in their own supposed righteousness—as payment for their sin (1 Jn 5:11-3).

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine! O what a foretaste of glory divine!

Heir of salvation, purchase of God, Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.

 This is my story, this is my song, Praising my Savior all the day long.

[If you desire to learn more about the difference between the official teachings of the Roman Catholic Church and the clear doctrines of the Bible, please check out the helpful resources available at Proclaiming the Gospel.]

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5 Comments

  1. Thanks Paul

    I will be sharing this with a few former RCC brothers for their encouragement

    Adalpho Doug

  2. Your testimony was a blessing! Thank you for posting it.

  3. Thank God for His grace in Jesus Christ! What you shared about how it was to be in spiritual darkness of works-righteousness system of RCC was like reading how it was for me then. I grew up RCC and only by God’s grace alone in Christ I got out of the dungeon- someone shared the Gospel with me! I read the part where God changed your heart.. that yearning for God’s word, to be with other believers, etc… my heart rejoiced for He did the same thing in me. Praise God for His full mercy in our Lord Jesus Christ.

  4. Thank You Paul, I can so relate to your story. I was born and raised Catholic. I thought Catholic was the only way. That is what I was taught. I am so glad the Lord found me. Grace. I feel so Blessed. I have Catholic friends, and I pray for them all the time. And family. Their eyes are so Blinded, it is so sad. Heaven is real and so is Hell, and both are forever. It really hurts my heart how all these people are being decieved. We serve a Just God. Freewill. I can not Thank the Lord enough.
    Blessings,
    Kathy

    • Thank you, Kathy, for your gracious testimony of God’s mercy to open the eyes of those who are still blinded like we both were. God is so merciful.